need hope please

Stuck in my own head.

Live in the present?

Even if the present sucks full of feeling immobile and helpless and scared of the future so much that it feels like I am sitting here waiting for the death of all our dreams.

I need hope 

I need an angel investor bc I tried to do it on our own and the obstacles are just too great for my mind to handle

The sound of the neighbors construction are like knife blades on my senses leaving me in so much pain that I can't even get up put of bed to get away from the pain.

But we don't have a car and I can't drive anyways even if we did.

I tried to convince some wealthy people to get us an etrike so we could at least be mobile.  

But who wants to spend $6000 on a family of three.  No-one.

Not unless I would be willing to have sex with them.  Which I am not.

I have nothing left to give anyone other then love to my mom and my son

And no-one who can afford to give us money wants to give us enough to be mobile enough to go accomplish anything we might actually be able to accomplish

Do you have $6000?

Would you give that to a family to get an eteike so they could be mobile without having to get a driver's license?

How about if they did have a driver's license.

Pain.