Found this in my draft folder.not sure if I ever sent it to them or not .
Doesn't matter now.
But if it will entertain someone else,here it is::
Dear person,
May I ask- is this what you had written in the last message that I did not get to see? If you still have it in your own feed, I would very much like to see a copy of what your original response was at that time so I could have more insight into answering these questions. And just so I can know bc I get so frustrated not knowing what someone originally thought or said (small pet peeve of mine).
Question one: what specific help can you offer? - do you mean other then saving the home and getting it out into a trust that ensures we would be the ones to buy it back? Isn't that more then enough?
Question two: how would I be towards you? Well wow, a lot of that depends on so many infinite
amount of factors ... I have the belief that isnide each of us exists many types of personalities.. from the silly flirtatious parts of ourselves, to the adventurous parts of ourselves, to the parts within us that need to feel safe and reassured...and for each and every person what each of those parts comes together is uniquely different. But I also believe that each of us tends to bring out different aspects of one another.
In an ideal world, we would leave each other feeling safe enough to help bring out the parts of each other that likes to dance and laugh and grin...
But since we would be tied to you financially for a little while, I am also aware that the reality is that that is enough time to bring out MANY different parts of us.
I am under the assumption that your desire is to be an open relationship? And that you desire our main ties to you to be only a financial one and a physical one to me... but it is unclear is if you want an emotional tie, and if so, how deep of one?
your profile does say you are seeking an emotional connection as well but your profile description implies that it also want emotional connections not attached necessarily to only one person?
So that brings us to the part where you are interested me sexually.. lol..
Laughter.. oh boy, and isn't that a can of something.. so yes that one will be a challenge. And here is where there might be some problems bc getting me there is a challenge. Once there, I do not know much about me anymore. It would be interesting to see..I can tell you how I once was before when I was brazen and lots of hutspah.. but now?
it is basically like starting over with a virgin, which obviously I am not since I have a son.. but they do say one is a completely new person after seven years.. and it has been about that long since thr last time I felt open enough to be there. I am not worried about emotionally being affected since I know I am safe there as long as I have my home.. But mentally, do you have in your what it takes to entice me to want to be there again with you?
What you do have going for you, is that physically I am not opposed to your body. I prefer lean, fit. And god, you have the eyes..
But instant gratification of release for you?
Seriously is that what you really would want? Yes I know you can have any hodunkwho, but do you really want something that will just give it to your because of purely financial reasons?
Would you be up for the mental chase?
I mean, if you saved the home, well okay you would have gotten rid of my biggest barrier to that world. And in theory between my physical attraction to you and my gratitude to you, in theory that should be enough to make it so even out of just pure gratitude I would be open to you. But would you really want me to just go through thr mechanicsl motions out of obligation bc i have sold myself to you? Yeah. If I were in your shoes, that would just sound.... shudder...
Or would you want the part of me that actually wants to seduce you out of more then just gratitude? Wouldn't you prefer the part of me that wanted you bc I actually felt safe around you to be myself.. my fulllllllllll self!
If so, then,
you would also need to be able to enjoy the amusement of letting me feel mentally safe. And that process... If you are going to want ALL of me to want to be involved with you that way, it will take more then just your saving the home.. but a confidence to be patient enough to not push and invite and just have the door open ...getting the little girl part of me to sneak out of the hiding hole... To seduce with patience with confidence...it is not easy. And for you, you would have to challenge yourself. Bc you do like fast and not having something fast fast fast so you can quickl move on to the next thing to reach your adrenaline fix .. yes, that would be painful for you?
Oh you could know you would get the prize in the end, but I guarantee you would be far much happier long term letting me get there at my own pace then asking me to rush the process simple out of gratitude.
But Would you be the kind of person who would allow yourself to get any satisfaction of enjoying the process of watching and waiting me to get there with confidence?
Not sure what your experience is with long relationships
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